The other thing about Van is that he never went home. It
seemed to me that for a married man he had a lot of flexible
hours. Even when he did leave, he returned right away, usually
before the bug killer or fertilizer or flower feeder or whatever
else he sprayed in the yard had ceased to putrefy everything.
''Don't' you wonder what this crap does to your lungs?''
I asked him. He was standing at the front door, on
the other side of the screen, holding a metal container with
a spray attachment that looked like a bullhorn. You
would think that after so long he'd just walk inside, but
no, he stood there and knocked. I thought about what
Ginny had said about his being like a dog waiting to be let
in. I let him in.
''Nothing wrong with this,'' he said, holding up his spray
can. ''It's food for shrubs.'' He hooked a thumb over
his shoulder, nodding backwards. ''Someone outside for you.''
In the street just outside our door was a bright pink Cadillac
with a woman behind the wheel.
''You know her?'' Van asked. ''She says she knows you.''
I was about to answer no when I realized that the woman
in the car was Celia Lawson. I recognized her funny
glasses and her particular hairstyle, which made it so her
hair never, ever moved. She caught sight of me and
blasted her horn.
I charged out of the house and stood by her car. I'd
forgotten to put on shoes, and even though it was only nine
A.M., the hot pavement stung. I hopped from one foot
to the other, speaking to Celia through the car window.
''How did you find this place?'' I asked.
''Get in,'' she said. Beside her was a map of Los Angeles,
a crude paper placemat with the name of a doughnut shop across
the top; details of the city were illustrated in salmon and
green. She put her finger on the control button to
raise the window. ''I'm losing air conditioning,''
she said.
I went around to the passenger's side and settled into the
white leather of the Cadillac's interior.
''I bought this thing from a rental place called Uncle Sog's. You
are never supposed to buy a car that has been used for rental,
my daughter tells me. She tells me after I've paid
four grand,'' Celia says, accelerating. ''And I don't
have a license, so alert me if I do something wrong.''
We drove down Sun Dial Street, took a series of right hand
turns and continued on around again, orbiting my mother's
house.
Celia said. ''I've been watching a documentary called The
Family In Crisis. Did you know that the family is in
crisis? I used to think it was just my family that was in
crisis, but now I see that historically the family has always
been in crisis.''
''How long can a crisis last?'' I asked. ''Isn't a crisis
by definition a catastrophe that occurs suddenly?''
''That is a point, Sam. But it is a small and insignificant
point.''
We went round and round, past the UPS building, the all-night
taco stand, the car wash.
''If you will give me driving lessons,'' Celia said, ''I'll
introduce you to my daughter.''
''I'm not so sure that's such a good deal for her,'' I said.
Celia had stopped at an intersection even though the light
was green. ''If you're willing to make a full trade for her,
I'm sure you can do better. You might get two hundred
or so camels, a dozen slaves - but only if you'd be willing
to travel.''
''Do you want to know what Lucy's think tank of a husband
has spent the past month doing? Trying to sell the
school district on the idea that chocolate replicas would
be acquaint children with the more discreet regions of the
anatomy.''
''Celia, I'd love to hang around, but I'm half dressed and
there's work to be done.''
''I'm surprised he wasn't arrested.''
''Celia, I'm getting out.''
''You can't. I need an instructor. How about we make
an arrangement for a lesson this afternoon?''
''I don't know.''
''I have a test in seven days. I'm desperate,'' she
said.
''Celia, green means go.''
''I knew you'd be perfect for this job.''
''Nice lady,'' Van said when I returned to the house. He
offered me some coffee, which I refused. ''How about
you give me a hand with the new soil?'' he asked.
''What new soil? God, no. Leave me alone.''
''Suit yourself, but afterwards there'll be planting.''
He went to the kitchen for his coffee and then out he back
door to the yard. I decided to wake up Ginny. There
was no way I could face Van alone so early in the day.
''Ginny,'' I said. I tapped her bedroom door with
two knuckles. I waited. ''Okay, I'm taking a shower
but then I'm coming back, ready to assault your morning lie-in. Nobody
gets to snooze until noon if I don't. I'm the sleep commando!''
I laughed gruesomely and sauntered off, heavy-footed. But
Ginny did not awaken, not when I showered, when I turned
up the volume on the radio, when I stormed through my clothes
looking for something to wear.
I walked by her room again and again, making a lot of noise. I
kept expecting to see her coming through the door, her hair
bunched in an elastic band, her nightgown loose around her
shoulders. I had a meeting with Eli this afternoon,
thanks to her. I hoped he could arrange for me to listen
to a couple of the groups I'd heard on tape. Thinking
about that improved my spirits. It seemed that for the first
time in a long while I was on to some music that had a chance
of really making it big, and I was in a big mood.
But then Van decided to take a rest from his gardening. He
came into the living room and plopped himself in front of
the television. He watched me as I knocked on Ginny's
door, shook his head and smiled. I knocked again and called
her name, asking if I could come in. I felt very stupid,
knowing that Van was sitting ten feet away, listening. He
was trying to appear interested in a game show, but he kept
the sound down low and I know anyway he was tuning into my
efforts with Ginny's closed door. I could see something of
a smirk on his face. After a while he didn't even pretend
to be watching the show. He glanced at me in a way
that made me feel very creepy. His thick lips were
pursed below his moustache and he had this smug, detestable
expression. I tried ignoring him but he turned fully
toward me. In his palm was the remote control, which
he handled as though it were a very important and authoritative
prop. He said, ''She's not here.''
''What do you mean she's not here?'' I said. ''She's asleep.''
''No sir, she's not,'' Van said. He chucked in one short
breath. He pointed the remote control at the television
and flipped a few channels. He brought the volume up
and down. Apparently, he thought he was hot stuff doing this. With
his remote control he seemed to make the statement I am in
control here. I am the possessor of the wand of control,
as you can see.
''Why are you laughing?'' I asked.
''I'm not laughing,'' he said. ''I'm telling you she's gone. Her
car isn't here, you might have noticed.''
''Where is she?''
''If you spent any time around here, you'd know,'' he said.
He turned his head toward Mother, who came into the room,
holding a potted plant.
''My little geranium is dying. Can you save it?''
''Of course,'' Van said. ''Give her here, Jewel.''
Mother was in a good mood again this morning. We were supposed
to be sceptical about her new effulgence. We were supposed
to prepare ourselves for another turn. Advice from Wilma,
the psychiatric nurse, who came by altogether too seldom
but apparently was helpful even so.
But now Mother seemed like the happiest woman in the world,
all good news and cheer. She was preparing some sort
of meal. Van had promised the day to her and she was celebrating.
''A few more minutes and it'll be ready,'' Mother said.
''We'll all have a nice family brunch.''
''Terrific!'' Van said and gave me a look.
''That's great,'' I said.
When she left the room I said to Van, ''You're the type
of guy who makes lamps out of empty wine bottles and feels
strongly about brands of motor oil.''
''What does that have to do with anything?''
''I'm just reminding myself,'' I said. I knocked on Ginny's
door again.
Van looked me up and down, let go an enormous sigh and said,
''Look, maybe the girl is asleep, but she'd not here.''
''She probably took a taxi home,'' I said.
Van winced. ''Taxi,'' he repeated.
Finally I turned the knob and looked inside the room. Van
was right. No Ginny. The bed was a confusion of sheets
and blankets but it was exactly like it had been yesterday
and there was no one in the room. I glanced at Van. He
was smiling the way you see men smile late at night at girls
they don't' have a chance with. A voyeur's smile.
I said, ''She's asleep, you idiot. Don't disturb her.''